I may have mentioned a time or two that Ryan's been working a lot. The more he works, the less I work... the less I work... the more time I spend with Jude.
Now I hesitate to put these words out into the public, because usually I love every minute with my son. Usually, the thought of being a stay at home mother (who DOESN'T have to work part time)is GLORIOUS! Usually, the thought of changing diapers, cleaning the house, chasing after my munchkin and teaching him the ropes of this world 24 hours a day... 7 days a week... unassisted is quite heavenly. Ok... perhaps the last part was taking it a bit far.
But the last month or so, Ryan's been working pretty much every waking hour... putting in 12 hour days on a jobsite an hour away... which adds up to him being gone somewhere in the neighborhood of 14 hours a day. So basically, I'm a one man show here. Jude and I wake up together, we do everything together and if we're lucky, we spend about an hour or two of time with Ryan before it's time to rest up to do it all again the next day. Now, I get my share of adult interaction. We do play dates, day trips and talk with the neighbors. We go to museums, walk through gardens, get ice cream and eat lunch out - but it's not the same as adult interaction that is not centered around a child. It's not the same as spending an evening sharing the household duties with another. So, to say that lately I've been a little on edge... is a bit of an under statement.
After a couple of days in which I'm pretty sure I went to bed spewing green slime and putting off some sort of scent that just told Ryan he should steer clear of me, I decided to go to a late night movie - alone. Most people scoff at the idea of someone finding a lone trip to the movies relaxing and enjoyable - but to me it's near perfection from time to time. It wasn't the whole day off - or maybe the weekend away that I was (or maybe still am?) looking for, but it was enough for me to realign myself.
Perhaps even better than that though was that also this week we planned another sort of get-away. We booked part of our vacation which will be taking place mid-July! Sweet serenity.
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i almost couldn't figure out how to leave a comment. uh, duh
I went to lowes and was talking to my aunt...I mentioned how I had planned to go to the movies but the showtimes were too inconvenient. She was very put off at the idea of someone going to the theater by themselves, which kinda surprised me.. I thoguht only teenagers and early-20's felt that way. show's what I know. I guess it's all personal preference. I would have killed for a movie night out alone that day!
tell me more about this get-away....is it that baseball adventure you told me about many moons ago? text me!
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